Run Sarah! RUN!

Well, that is what I have been doing most of the time now lately. I am training for the Rock n Roll VA Beach 1/2 Marathon in September. I am very excited as this is my first major race. I am also excited to be running it with two very special ladies, my sister in law and my good friend, Erin. Running has been challenging. But it has given me something to look forward to and the motivation to get up every morning. Running has helped me gain confidence and pushed me further than anything I have ever done before. Crazy. If I knew that I would have started doing it sooner.

I guess I have been running for a long time though now, in the figurative sense. But don't we all run, from something. I think we do. We run from our marriages, our pasts, our unhealthy behaviors. We all run. We just don't know it. I think I have been running from the truth. Fighting so hard to deny what is really happening and what I really want. I have been trying to figure out for years how I can be truly happy. Funny thing is now that I figured out what makes me happy, really happy, coincides with me being unemployed and depressed most of the time. Bummer.

For those out there who hate running, and I know who you are because I used to be you, I have a word of advice. Try running or better yet walking. Do it every day. Even when you don't feel like it. I do my best thinking when I am running. It is also great quality alone time. You probably need it more than you think.

Well today my run helped me determine that I will be taken advantage of. No matter how bad I want to work right now, I can't take the first thing that comes to the table. I have to be smart. I have to think about the future and the bills and my marriage. I can't just put that all on the line for eight dollars an hour. I just can't.